Wednesday, November 17, 2010
wow it's already mid-nov...
Wow the end of the year is flying... the past couple of weeks have been kind of busy. I FINALLY rolled off my Lilly project (at least for a little while) and had 2 weeks at home to do nothing. I had 2 appts with the IF clinic but other than that I didn't do too much. Went to OC with my momma for the day and got most of my christmas shopping done. I also got the house cleaned out of crap (made almost $500 with ebay old tech items) and tried to keep myself some what busy. I am back in work up in Winnipeg Canada. It's COLD and snowy up here but pretty neat. I'm only here this week and then I'm home for Thanksgiving week.... I then am off to Dallas for 3 weeks until Christmas. I'll be working at Texas Instruments, so it should be pretty cool. Finally I have the last 2 weeks off at home for Christmas/NYE. YAY!!! Gonna be a crazy couple of weeks, I'm sure :)
Wednesday, November 3, 2010
Life sucks!!
Disclaimer - if you want to read happy-cheery type of things, so somewhere else!
Welp after another HIGH bloodtest and a ultrasound that doesn't show a right ovary (can't find it) nor does it have any eggs.... the clinic has finally said that they can't do anything else for me unless I want to do DE IVF.
Life sucks, it really does. There is nothing that will make me feel better at the moment(except if someone could make me fertile). I don't know how to explain it. I wish I was working this week and not home by myself. I need my mind busy with mindless things and not thoughts that I can't have children like a normal person. I feel a choice has been taken from me and I didn't get to choose. No one understands and nor do I expect them too.
Adoption.... Let me vent about that one too.... just because I can't have kids does not mean that I have to adopt children. ANYONE can adopt even if you can pop out 18 kids. Back off me and don't suggest it either. I know my options, the clinic has already defined them for me.
I HATE Facebook! It's the devil because all I see is people with their smiling children, happy pregnancy, etc.... Great for them, sucks for me!
Yes I'm having a pity party and I really don't care at the moment!
Welp after another HIGH bloodtest and a ultrasound that doesn't show a right ovary (can't find it) nor does it have any eggs.... the clinic has finally said that they can't do anything else for me unless I want to do DE IVF.
Life sucks, it really does. There is nothing that will make me feel better at the moment(except if someone could make me fertile). I don't know how to explain it. I wish I was working this week and not home by myself. I need my mind busy with mindless things and not thoughts that I can't have children like a normal person. I feel a choice has been taken from me and I didn't get to choose. No one understands and nor do I expect them too.
Adoption.... Let me vent about that one too.... just because I can't have kids does not mean that I have to adopt children. ANYONE can adopt even if you can pop out 18 kids. Back off me and don't suggest it either. I know my options, the clinic has already defined them for me.
I HATE Facebook! It's the devil because all I see is people with their smiling children, happy pregnancy, etc.... Great for them, sucks for me!
Yes I'm having a pity party and I really don't care at the moment!
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